I don′t understand the deepest side of me
I got too many days to think in quarantine
Living on my own with no one to relate
I'm feeling overwhelmed by the hidden part of me
I don′t understand why I play hide and seek
Hiding all the bottles that I finish in a week
I'm living in a hole with no light that can heat
My face begins to show the first signs of defeat
And I fall down
I fall down
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
Love can′t see me
I′m only happy when I'm drunk
Only happy when I′m drunk
I don't want the weight and the stress inside my head
So I try to keep the fog until I go to bed
I feel like Dorian Gray, the painting has no flaws
I try to fix the surface, the inside is long gone
And I fall down
I fall down
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I′m not gonna lie
Love can't see me
I′m only happy when I'm drunk
In this grieving time
I'm washing all away
I′m washing all the pain
Sorrow can grow
I will drown my pain away
I will drown it all away
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
Just need to slow down
But I′m not gonna lie
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
Love can′t see me
I'm only happy when I′m drunk
