I have to be deliberate when I deliver this, the words are on the tip of my tongue, lips quivering, it’s not cold outside but my body is shivering, and the skin that I’m in is shaken deep to the core, I’m pacing the floor like I have a nervous habit, and I’m an anxious person but that’s not the reason why, it hurts to be a husband, seeing your wife cry, concerned for her emotions while I’m tripping over mine, holding my baby during the first day of her life, doctors come into the room saying something isn’t right, they couldn’t tell us why so they started running tests at the ICU with wires connected to her head, the imagery was intense, we just kept on praying, trying to stay calm, but in my mind it was mayhem, we faced it as a family, never alone, and I was smiling when we got to bring our baby girl home
Chorus:
If I could tell you all my stories
Then you would realize in yours it’s not over
I’ve been through so many battles
And I almost lost myself, but now I’m back
Now I’m back again
I was in Portland writing this song, then I got a call that something was wrong, it never crossed my mind that you might be gone, cause you were so young and your will was so strong, on my way to the hospital, I was driving slow, didn’t really think it was your time to go, when I arrived, I was calm, asking what happened, they said after the cat scan I can chat with the chaplain, and he’s telling me you had a major stroke, a vessel in your brain stem suddenly broke, took me to your bed, now it’s just me and you, father and son in the emergency room, I said a few words, you couldn’t even speak, the only reason you're breathing is from a machine, I’m always gonna miss you, but God gave me peace, letting go of regrets, holding on to the memories
If I could tell you all of my stories
I’m sure you have many of your own
