I am a Californian (that is a Northern Californian - there's a HUGE difference between the North and South here. All those jokes about California "falling off into the ocean" are about the Southern Californians, NOT us Northerners.) I am also known as "the pastor's wife" in these parts. My husband, Rob is Senior Pastor of Calvary Chapel Tracy. I have two delightful miracles -my children, Nathaniel, 4 and Keira who is a delightful 17 months old.

I wrote "The Lion" 5 days after the 9/11 tragedy hit America (and the world). To this day, I don't comprehend God's heart, and His plan for this earth. But when I wrote that song, it was like I was in another realm for a moment, where time is non-existent. And for an instant I was catching a glimpse of the entire canvas rather than my usual view of the one dot of paint.

"Though my righteousness is as filthy rags, the Maker of my soul brings mercies new each morning..." I have been made aware of my own wretched soul. It was extremely shabby in the pre-Jesus-dwelling-in-me state. I am still a beat up, greasy garage rag inside, except now I have the Spirit of Jesus living in me. I only pray people see more of His radiant garments and less of my filthy rags!

"I look right past you, standing there in front of me. How stupid can I be?" These lyrics in "Call Me Crazy" could apply to a relationship with a person, but in my case, I am talking about how I can be like a deer in the headlights - blind to all the lover of my soul has to offer.

Becoming a Senior Pastor's wife was not anywhere on my agenda, nor was waiting 6 years for my first child. In my own young mind, I had it all planned at 13. Become a famous singer (you know the story - get married at 25, have 2 kids - be famous, skinny and perfect). But Someone else had His own plans for me. He wanted me to learn that the gifts He bestowed on me weren't about making ME famous, but about making HIM famous.

So he brought my husband who was making 6 figures OUT of Egypt and into the career of Shepherd. We desired children, but God desired to have us WAIT on him and then performed a miracle at a very crucial time in our lives. 9 months after planting our church in Tracy God allowed me to be pregnant with our first child, Nathaniel (meaning Given by God). I believe He had me wait also for the purpose of teaching me that beign a Mother is a privilege, joy and responsibility that should be kept a higher priority than a career.

So I have to laugh at myself when I sometimes still talk like I know where I am going to be even in a month from now. God's turned my ship around way too many times! Let "if it is the Lord's Will" be my new motto.

I recently recorded my third project in Nashville with Producer John Pisciotta. I had the opportunity to co-write with John and his wife Robin (AKA Robin Welty), and we came up with the song "Call Me Crazy". I also recorded the song "The Lion" - a fan favorite, and "Down Before Him" a song about surrendering every anxiety, fear and pain before the Father.

If God chooses to use my music or testimony or ANYTHING about me at all to soften a heart or tickle someone's ears to hear His message for their life, all I can say is, "Whoa."