Shatter

Thoughts pick away at my mind like vultures
Am I a vessel built for agony?
A machine made to fill up space?
Scraps from the bottom of the barrel?

When I close my eyes at night
I see black, I see red
I see every mistake that I ever made

Can i make it end?
How do I make it end?
i’m teetering on the edge

I’ve lost control of my mind
Calm down, breathe out, the walls are closing in

I know i’m born for more, i gotta believe that
I swear that i’m trying, but the pain’s crippling

When the hurt leaves where does it go?
How does it always make a re-entrance?

There must be a leak, there must be a hole
Fill my ears, block my eyes, so it cant get in
I won’t let it in
Oh no it’s here again!
Agony! Pain! Where’s my medicine?

I’ve always heard them say
Crack a smile, you never know who is watching
But I want you to know if I crack anymore, I swear to god it’ll send my whole life shattering!

i’m convinced the hurt runs in my blood
Maybe i should let some out, and let some fresh air in

The sky grows darker every time a star burns out
You cast such vibrant glow, please don’t fade out
Authentic beauty, that you carry within you
You will take it along with you, if you go too soon

I tried to do this all on my own
But i can’t make it alone

I know I can’t make the pain end
But I won’t let the pain be the end of me