NRTeam Blogs Home
 Join The NRTeam

< Previous Blog | Next Blog >  
Giving Up
by lilleywhite (View All lilleywhite's Blog Entries)

Saturday, September 05, 2009 Type: Poetry Views: 360

Written, again, when I was sixteen. The topic of depression, despair, and self-injury seemed to be rampant in that journal volume.

Giving Up

Terribly confused by all that she hears
Suddenly confronted by all of her fears
Then she saw
Her every flaw
Threw herself to the bed and shed tears.

She cried over the person she could have been
The girl who existed before she met him,
Before she was rejected
Misused, disrespected
Before she went wayward and fell into sin.

The world to her was so misleading
Desperate, confused, she scrapes her arm bleeding
All she aspires to
Is to fill her desires to
Cease her small, jealous heart's beating.

So tired and lonely, joked at and jaded,
She picked up the blade and destroyed who she hated
But aside from the pain
Inside she's the same
Her masochism fell flat and deflated.

"My arms and my heart. My God, I am aching!
I want to real this life I've been faking
This twisted mentality
Doesn't work out for me
Please help me to clean up this mess I've been making!

Please help this self-hatred to loose its appeal
And take away all this depression I feel
I give my life, my all to You
Knowing that You'll make me new
Brush me under Your wing and help me to heal."

comments powered by Disqus

View All Blog Entries | Return to lilleywhite's Profile

Christian Music, Facebook Christian Music, Twitter Christian Music, Google Christian Music, YouTube Christian Music, Instagram


Christian Music On Google+ Follow Us On Twitter Follow Us On Facebook Follow Us On YouTube Christian Music Instagram Christian Music Pinterest

Home | About NRT | NRT Radio | Advertising Information | Privacy & Site Terms | NRTeam Policies | Contact Us
Become An NRTeam Member | Subscribe To Newsletter | Christian Music RSS Feeds
©2002-15, A Division Of NRT Media Inc.

Christian Music On Google+ Follow Us On Twitter Follow Us On Facebook Follow Us On YouTube